I went back to school today. I don't have that much left to finish my degree. My classes were fine , but it was just not my best day. Change is hard. I'm only in class two afternoons a week, so I know it will be fine. To cheer myself up I thought I would post a few of my favorite pictures from vacation. My favorite little girls, one of my favorite places, with two of the best friends I could ask for: my mom and Tiffany. I wish I was there right now!!!
I think one of the greatest gifts God gave our earthly bodies is the ability to feel emotions. If I close my eyes, I can see each of my children placed in my arms for the first time, and that, is very much a feeling of love. I can remember special gifts given to me, and accomplishments that I worked hard for. The emotions I felt during those time were of happiness and satisfaction. God gave me those feelings and they were good.
God has also let me experience feelings, however, that I didn't feel were so good. I have felt anger and rage about situations that I couldn't control. Heart ache at the death of a friend who left two little girls she wouldn't get to raise, and disappointment when people didn't live up to my expectations.
I believe that God lets us experience both the good and the bad emotions because he can use both to bring us closer to him. I'll be honest and say that I'm afraid of the bad times. I don't want to hurt. I'm all for unicorns and rainbows, but when our emotions are overwhelming us, he wants us to draw closer to him.
Now for the point of this. I want to share an idea I seen a while back for doing just that...drawing closer to God....
1. Write down some of the negative emotions that you are having. It could be fear, jealousy, lust...anything that is weighing on your heart.
These were three of the negative emotions I specifically wanted to pray about this week. Discontentment-I think that this is an overall feeling of all the things I want to accomplish with my children each week, that I just don't finish. Broken Hearted-the loss of a 2 week old baby by an acquaintance, the death of a beloved family pet, and some other things that have produced this feeling. Unhappiness with my physical appearance-I know my feelings aren't those that God wishes me to have for the body he has given me.
2. Write each one on a separate sheet of paper and write down all the Bible verses you can find about each emotion.
3. Pray about each feeling/emotion. I put a star next to each verse that I specifically wanted to pray. I am going to pray that verse to God as many times as I can.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him
and he will make your paths straight
I am so thankful to God for all the blessings he has given me. I'm also thankful for anyone who made it through this whole post! I hope everyone has a great week!
I'm linking this to Five Minute Friday. Every Friday there is a new prompt and you write for five minutes without worrying about grammar or making it perfect. Here is mine:
Standing underneath her school mascot I take the famous first day of school picture. I've made her a little chalkboard sign that says First Day of Kindergarten. Before we left for school she looked like my big girl. The oldest of my three girls. Now walking down the hall with all of the other children I'm overcome by how small she really is. I don't think that I can actually leave her here. It's different than pre-k...this is the actually K! It makes it a little easier that she is so eager. She does't want me to stay. She is ready to start her adventure. She doesn't need mommy right now. I hand her the backpack that she picked out while we were on vacation. She gives me a big hug and kiss and after talking to her teacher briefly, I turn to walk out the door. I look back at her sitting in the hallway like her teacher had asked her to do. And then I lose it. I can't help who's looking the tears start streaming down my face and I try to look down so that the new principal and teachers won't see and think I'm crazy. She's my baby and I'm not ready to let go.
It's not often I find something that all of my kids and their cousins like to play with. This Summer, however, I found a recipe for Homemade Moon Dough on Pinterest and everyone loved it. They played with it at least an hour, it was super easy to make, and basically no clean up.
I made a big batch and divided it into two plastic shoe boxes and let the kids have it. Gracie is 10 and liked it as much as Makayla who is 1.
It was quiet and there was no fighting for a whole hour! YAY!
Now for the recipe
8 cups flour
1 cup vegetable oil
Essential oil (if you want)
Place flour in large bowl and make a well in the center. Pour oil in the center and mix until it's all mixed together.
I halved this recipe and it made Plenty! It also kept well. I think it would be fun to add measuring cups/spoons, cookie cutters, etc. It's also fun just running through your hands too!
I love this picture!
My dad brought the girls a mommy cat with 6 little kittens. They are in love. They would keep a kitten with them/on them all day if I would let them. That was fine until the day I had to clean up kitty poop! I should add that I am NOT a fan of cats. That was the end of the kittens playing in the house. The girls can play with them all they want outside! When we are outside they are usually lugging one of those poor kittens around and playing with mud.
Bella has claimed one as her baby.
She loves animals and is so gentle with them. She loses her mind when she sees Makayla carrying one around by its tail.
On a side note: Is it just wrong to be jealous of your child's bicep:)
The girls have also been tending a "garden". The garden is two big pots that have weeds growing out of them. I think mostly they just like digging around making mud and then playing in the mud.
Makayla likes sitting in one of their little chairs watching her sisters. She sometimes likes to get in there with them too.
And this is what she looks like often. She loves getting dirty. Good thing she also likes bath time! She is kissing the kitten and not actually killing it. This also makes Bella lose her mind.
I was feeling a little bad that I didn't get to do all of the weekly "themes" with the girls that I had planned before Bella started school. Then I remembered that this is the way children learn best: by touching, hearing, exploring...and then asking me a million questions. My dad says that I could ask three questions before he had the first one answered when I was a kid. I was curious and loved to learn new things. I think that they have me beat on the question asking and my dad got off easy since I am only child. Bella and Hannah amaze me with what they think of and it's just a short time until Makayla will join them. I think we'll be learning a lot together.
And I can't wait.